…I get to feel depressed, anxious, and
worthless all at the same time. Wow! THREE emotions for the
price of one! Very economical...
…I pay attention and focus on events
and situations that no one else thought were very
important. By deliberately noticing all the little
"mistakes" I make, I create my own
"Hell" all around me and get a chance to live in
my own little world of pain and misery.
…I'm only listening to ANTs thoughts,
and I have found them to be very "truthful" and
"accurate". By continuing to beat myself up, I am
guaranteeing that my ANTs thoughts and feelings will always
rule my life.
…I reinforce the absolute fact that I
am a failure, a loser, no good, and have nothing to offer
anyone at any time. This fuels my anxiety and my deepest
depression. It will mess up my life for good, and insure
that I do not have a future.
…I know I will continue to see things
in the way the ANTs want me to see them … inaccurately,
irrationally, and skewed to the negative. This is exciting
… maybe I can be known as the "most depressing
person on the face of the planet" if I keep this up.
…I will not be allowing rational,
accurate, and healthy thoughts to enter my mind. By beating
myself up, I can keep these nasty rational thoughts away
forever. I am learning to love anxiety, depression, fear,
worthlessness, hopelessness, and failure.